Till now, I should admit... I do not understand the meaning of "friend" anymore. For these two years, I have been fighting for my career and my honor. I had been through many which not everyone could know. I learn one thing which even sometime the Bible says so. Not entirely the friends around you are your friends. They shall be called "friends", not friends.
Though this is a stunning fact, i do believe many people have this experience.
You might be wondering... When you organize a tea session with them, they do come and have fellowship with you. They do everything the same with you. They play with you; they do stupid things with you. As time goes by, they can be considered as "brothers" or "sisters". When this kind of relationship has been set, you should be thinking that no matter what you do or accomplish, your "brothers/sisters" are supposed to be joyful for you because you have done something meaningful.
However, this is not true. Your "brothers/sisters" or whatsoever "close friends" do not really support you. In fact, they choose to ignore your work. Sometimes we do feel sad, because we are all thinking about the same thing, "Sometimes I do think this way: why are the strangers way better in supporting me than my close friends?"
Yes, this is the fact. Strangers whom you do not even know, they recognize your life; they recognize your hard work; they acknowledge your passion; they boost you up; they give full support; they sometimes even offer their precious helping hand to you. Why? I thought our "close friends, brothers or sisters" are supposed to be helping us, fully support us, share the joy with us. But they are not.
Yesterday, people commented on my videography ideas. They love it. They acknowledge it. They even ask me to collaborate with them in making great videos. They even offer to help on my videography ideas. Who are those people? Those who like my "Jack's Stuff" page and I do not know who they are. When I saw their support and appreciation, my tears fall, rolling down my cheek. In my heart, I said, "Thank You, God. Sometimes I do receive tge joy from Good Samaritans. They make me feel alive."
Then I check out some of my "church friends", and sad to say, they know what I am doing. They understand me much better than the strangers. I post on their walls. I share my videos and hope they will support me strongly. However, I see no support from them. They share other people works and tell people to support those whom they do not know. They "like" those photos from unknown photographers. But they will never appreciate your hard efforts in making the good photos or videos.
Those "church friends" know I wanna be a director and make Christian movies. I have many beautiful scripts and many ideas on how to bring out the meaning of Christianity. They first heard it, they showed their support. At that time, I really believe them. Right now, I did meaningful videos. They neglect me. They even share some pointless videos. They "like" others, and they never share mine. Am I really sure that they are supporting me?
It goes the same for "brothers/sisters". To me, they all are just too fake. I am disappointed, not because they did not "like" or share my videos. It is because i do not SENSE their support at all. They "like" and share strangers' videos or photos. And it applies the same for me as strangers "like" and share mine.
I am kinda frustrated with "church friends, brothers and sisters". They make me feel that they are completely out of my circle. I might as well pay attention to those who support and encourage me. And I would find a chance to collaborate with the Good Samaritans. Agree?
Those "close friends, church friends, brothers, sisters" came to you when they NEED you to help them. After that, they will neglect you once again. Sad to hear, but even God knows this fact.
Weird, is this how we define our meaning of "friend" today? If you ask me whether I do the same as "friends" did, I absolutely say I am not.
Job 19:19
"All my intimate friends detest me; those I love have turned against me."
